Please Tell Me Why

Why is it that the most important people are the ones that are hurt? Why is it the ones you love the most are the ones you can't help? Why is it you can't bargain with God to make those people better? Why? Why? Why? Uncle Bear has developed a staff infection and is in isolation. They are going to try to amputate the leg on Tuesday. I am so scared. This is a man I adore, I look up to. The whole family feels that way. Uncle Bear is amazing and now he is laying in that bed so defenseless and so sick and I am so angry. I wish someone would tell me why! I know this situation is not about me. He has a wife and sons, brothers, sisters, friends and other family, but I have never seen someone I love this sick and it is taking me over. I just don't get it. He is the only uncle that has loved me unconditionally and he is my favorite and there is not a damn thing I can do to help him, save him, make him better. I do continue to pray and I know the devil has a very strong hold on me right now. I can feel him trying to choke the christian life right out of me as I type. So please first and foremost keep praying for my Uncle Bear to get live, get strong enough for them to amputate the infected leg, live through the operation, for my family and that I can stay out of the clutches of satan as I feel him take hold of me. I am so angry and sad right now. I want to believe that God will spare my uncle's life, but the odds seem to keep stacking against that .